Story Blog of Hecate N. Nix

Today was a slow moving day for my household. It rained from 11:30 am on and so my younger brothers were unable to get out of the house and release some much needed pent up energy. In the end though there was a bright spot to the day when I decided to make stir-fry this evening. I just got a new food processor in the last week and haven't had a use for it before so here was a great chance. After some effort to install (the wording was reminiscent of stereo instructions) I got it working only to realize I'd put the wrong slicing plate in and had quite literally pureed the pepper I wanted to use. Suffice it to say that attempt went down the disposal. 

I finally did get the write plate in and made a very nice stir-fry. I am fascinated by Japanese meals and what not so I've been attempting to get my extremely mid-western U.S. family to learn to use chop sticks. It's rather entertaining to see but also may be a futile attempt on my part. To make matters worse I bought a set of Japanese soup spoons at an antique store earlier this week and decided to use them as they can be used for rice as well...did not go well. When chop sticks failed my ever resourceful brothers used the spoons to take gigantic helpings of rice from the bowls to their mouths. In the end I think I've learned that adding the option of forks to the table might be a reasonable option for the hand eye challenged members of my family. 

So, I've been kind of in a slump lately. I want to draw but nothing inspires me. I want to read but there's nothing I can sink my teeth into. Books I used to love are starting to ring false as I leave the juvenile stage that gave them life. I used to listen to music all the time and now I could go weeks without hearing any of my songs even once. It's getting frustrating. I do want to become a more responsible and enlightened adult but not at the cost of my identity.

Don't get me wrong. I don't want to sound melodramatic but I do want to still be able to enjoy webcomics, manga, fanfiction, and so many other things that I'm starting to lose through what for lack of a better word feels like apathy. Science fiction is formulaic. Romance no longer catches my attention the way it used to. Most fanfiction writers are hacks or young teens with poor writing skills or an inability to keep pre-conceived creations in character. I'm not saying I'm any better. (I tried my hand at fanfiction once and it's harder than it looks.) I'm just saying I don't enjoy it as much anymore. Most webcomics are not aimed at me or ramble aimlessly (*ahem Megatokyo-a series I dutifully read for two years before realizing they were rehashing plot but then what do I know. The man has more talent in his little finger than I do so I shouldn't judge).

I just want to be inspired. I want to pick up a book and not be able to put it down the way The Blue Sword, Hero and the Crown, and Crown Duel did for me when I was a kid. I want to play a game like Legend of Dragoon or Silent Hill 2 or even Resident Evil 4 without having to wade through the garbage that urban society claims to be legendary material (Cooking Mama, Grand Theft Auto, or the never ending line of Madden games). Maybe not everything i play is a gem of the first waters. I'll even admit to playing and enjoying Pokemon and DDR. The first two were actually good but now there's Platinum (a hopped up version of Diamond and Pearl) and DDR has trapped itself in a never ending cycle of spin offs, each one worse than the last with more and more convoluted non-dance oriented game play or hidden puzzles to figure out and impossible computer players to beat to unlock a song.

Am I jaded? Perhaps. On the other hand I like to think I'm maybe heading towards bigger and better taste. I've started listening to celtic chant recently and am at least back to writing. Anyways, that's the rant for the day. Maybe things aren't so bad after all....hahahahaha *snort*